i call my horny hubby mr rapist

This happened while ago , and I can’t tell anyone about it and it’s been killing me to keep it all by myself. I’ve found a way to tell someone without telling the people I know , so I am writing this story here anonymously hoping it would help me get this secret out .
I am 33 years old now and my brother, let’s call him dan is 28. I am married with no kids , and dan has a girlfriend for 3 years . And thing about me is I kinda look like girly masculine, I do have a body of a woman but I dress like a man , I always wear pants and shirts cos i work in a corporate. It all started a year ago , when I was 32 and he was 27 , we had went for a double date dinner with them. Dans girlfriend let’s call her anna , I didn’t really know her when she started dating dan. But over the years she and I became close friends z the type of friend that would share every detail of our life with each other . That night we all drank to much and went back to Dan’s place , my husband, we’ll call him rapist which I’ll explain in a while , so rapist an dan went on a balcony to hangout while Anna and I stayed ok the living room , we were talking I knew I had to drive home so I made myself coffee , anna didn’t want the coffee.
We were talking and anna complimented me , and then added ” me rapist also looked good tonight, I bet he’s got huge dick , he fucks you hard doesn’t he ? ” , I blushed , she was my friend and I thought we were just gossiping, i didn’t think much of it but I picked up my phone and showed her pics of Mr rapist dick , she smiled and told me it’s good . She then wanted to show my dans dick , she picked up her phone and opened an image , I covered my eyes and told her ” ewww that my brother I don’t wanna see that ” , she laughed and said that she forgot about that . She went to take a piss and my curiosity was through the roof , I looked at the pic , what I saw I couldn’t believe it , it was the biggest dick I’ve ever seen , double the size of Mr rapist and it was so thick that j couldn’t even wrap my fingers around it . I thought that it might not be my brother , I looked through more pics and indeed it was dan and idk why it was an impulsive thought but I sent those pics to my self and delete the chat history from Anna’s phone . Anna came back and started talking again , I couldn’t hear her , I could only imagine Dan’s dick over her face . I told her that I am tired and wanna go home . And Mr rapist and I went home .
At home mr rapist quickly fell asleep, I went to bathroom and locked the door, I sat on the counter and looked at those pics again . I was getting horny , I realised what I was doing , and it was wrong , I went to bed. Next day all I could think about was my brother, our childhood memories was rushing through my brain , I was in my office when a memory came in my mind , I was 22 and he was 17 , I had just started working in a company, I started coming home late and my mom used to sleep early , one day I came home early , and I have a habit of checking on my brother and mom seeing if they’re sleeping well . I checked my mom and she was sleeping like a child . I thought my brother was sleeping too , when I opened the door , I saw him shirtless under the blanket, I saw his short on the floor I knew he was naked , I jokingly asked him ” are you naked underneath that blanket, are you jerking off” , in panic he said ” no , I am not and get out ” , that’s when I saw a red cloth he was trying to hide under blanket but couldn’t properly. I went to my room thinking what could it be , I realised what it was , and to confirm it I went to laundry room and in basket I looked for my red panty I wore day before , and couldn’t find it . I knew what was going on I started crying , knowing my brother is jerking off to my panties . I went to my room and just layed there on my bed for a while , I heard the door open and after fee minutes closed . I went to laundry room and there it was my red panty , I picked it up and saw slimy substance on is , I swiped it with my fingers , and I got horny, I didn’t have boyfriend at that time , no action in my life , the cum I had swiped with my fingers , I licked it . I wanted to pleasure myself, I took that panty as went to my room got naked , and licked that cum from my panty and then I rubbed my panty all over my face which made my face covered in cum . We did this for few months, yeah we both wanted to fucked each other but couldn’t ever. Then I moved into my own apartment and eventually forgot about it .
Now to my husband Mr rapist and why that name , so where I worked my boss had a friend , guy 49 years old , he wanted some help my boss recommended me. I went to his office , and as I mentioned before that I only wear pants and shirt , my ass kinda looks big in it . I caught him checking out my ass , I didn’t mind tbh cos he wasn’t the only one who checks out my ass , few days later he suggested that we work at his home , it was around 8 at night , I went there, we were sitting on a couch and all the documents were on the table , so I had to lean forward to get it . He got great view of my ass and was clearly enjoying it . He gave in to his thoughts and grabbed my ass , I slapped him and got up , he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me down which made me sit on his lap , I was struggling to get up , he ripped my shirt buttons and pulled up my bra , he started squeezing my boobs and pinching my tits . I was crying hard , he got up and threw my on the couch and my back was up , he grabbed my waist and pulled my ass up , he ripped my pants and started fucking him , when he put his dick in my pussy first time I got this weird sensation, and I stopped struggling and let him rapped me ,He came on my back on my shirt . We didn’t say a word after that , he suggested that he drop me off to my house in his car cos my clothes were ripped and I was naked basically. He dropped off to my house and I didn’t report him to authorities or the company, next day I went to work like nothing has happened , and later to his home to get the work done . After an hour I saw that he was getting horny and was about to do what he did the night before, I got up and told him not to rip my clothes, I removed my clothes willingly, got naked and fucked him on the couch , which went on for few months , we shared feelings and got married, hence the name mr rapist, cos he had actually raped me . He still fucks me without my consent, in a fight he fucks me hard ad making me say that it was all my mistake.
Now to main part of the story , as mentioned before , I knew my brothers obsession with my panties and mine with his dick . I wanted to know if he still would use my panties , so one day when I was alone i called him home , I told him we should go outside, I deliberately smeared honey on his face as a joke , I knew he would have to clean it up using water , I told him to use my bathroom , I had put my panty on counter , he was in there for 5 minutes, I went in and saw that panty was moved a bit I picked it up and smelled it and it had pungent smell , and I knew he rubbed his dick on my panty. It was also bit wet , I think it was his precum . That is the moment I gave in to my sexual fantasies about my brother . He was laying in my bedroom , and I was in bathroom, I removed my clothes except panty and bra and came out , I pretended it was normal for me to roam half naked around him . I brought that panty he used and removed my panty in front of him and wore that infront of him , I removed my bra and wore other bra . I saw that he was confused, I jokingly said ,” is this turning you on gross” , he defensively said no . I laughingly said “liar liar “, I flashed him my boobs and said” you want to fuck your sister don’t you ?”.I turned around and pulled down my panty flashing him my ass , while laughing. I went to him ” you’re not that incest loving guy,are you ? And grabbed his crotch and he hard as a wood . He was very defensive and quite uncomfortable he kept denying it . Then I told him “oh come on I know you used to jerk off to my panties and cum on them ” , he was shocked, I added” dw it’s normal” and I lied that all my girlfriend friends brother’s also used to do this to make him feel better , and few of them might even have fucked their brother .
Few days later he called me and told me to come to his house . When I went to his house and opened the door he grabbed my boobs from behind and he stuck his face in my neck , I was struggling at first but when I heard those heavy breathing, I knew it was dan, I whispered “oh dan “. He ripped my shirt button and I wasn’t wearing any bra , he also removed my pants making me bottomless. He bent me over slightly not all the way and started rubbing his hands on my pussy and asshole , it looked like he was washing my ass. But all I could think was that how good it feels that my little brothers huge hands are rubbing my pussy and ass. He turned me around that’s when I saw him for first time since I got in his house. I saw his face and that look resembled the one mr rapist had when he first raped me. I looked at him for few seconds, I wanted to capture that look on his face , that lust on his face for me , made me want this more and more. He placed his hands on my head and pushed me down , he then removed his shorts , and there it was , that huge dick , double the size of Mr rapist . I grabbed it , and I forgot to mention my brother is not circumcised. I pushed his foreskin back revealing his tip . I leaned my face towards it , and just sniffed it slowly. That smell of dick of my brother I wanted more of it , I sniffed entire length of his dick upto his testicles. I grabbed his testicles from bottom and sniffed those too. Then I opened my mouth and put both testicles in it . I kept it in my mouth for atleast 2 minutes and started licking his dick and started sucking it properly. He picked me up and took me to his bedroom , he threw me in his bed and opened my legs so he could eat it and he did . He then turned me around and eat my asshole . And in that same position he put his dick in my pussy and fucked me hard . I kept moaning his name over and over . Then he did something that I don’t like , he covered my mouth with his hand and told me to spit on it , then he applied all that spit on my asshole and just inserted his huge dick in my asshole , I screamed hard . I dont even let me rapist fuck me in the ass cos I think it would hurt. But when dan fucked me in the ass that pain was insufferable tears were coming out but few minutes in anal sex , pain had stopped I could only feel that sensation we feel during sex . I thought he was finished but then he turned me around and got on top of my chest ,I thought he was going to cum on my face , but he face fucked me for few more minutes until eventually he came in my mouth. He got up as layed there perpendicular to me with his head on my stomach, while I caressed his hair . I looked at him and suggested that we should take shower . And that’s what we did , and this routine is going on till now , neither his girlfriend and my husband knows about it .
I fuck my brother and I am not ashamed of it , I feel safe around him and he satisfies me like no one can.
I am 33 years old now and my brother, let’s call him dan is 28. I am married with no kids , and dan has a girlfriend for 3 years . And thing about me is I kinda look like girly masculine, I do have a body of a woman but I dress like a man , I always wear pants and shirts cos i work in a corporate. It all started a year ago , when I was 32 and he was 27 , we had went for a double date dinner with them. Dans girlfriend let’s call her anna , I didn’t really know her when she started dating dan. But over the years she and I became close friends z the type of friend that would share every detail of our life with each other . That night we all drank to much and went back to Dan’s place , my husband, we’ll call him rapist which I’ll explain in a while , so rapist an dan went on a balcony to hangout while Anna and I stayed ok the living room , we were talking I knew I had to drive home so I made myself coffee , anna didn’t want the coffee.
We were talking and anna complimented me , and then added ” me rapist also looked good tonight, I bet he’s got huge dick , he fucks you hard doesn’t he ? ” , I blushed , she was my friend and I thought we were just gossiping, i didn’t think much of it but I picked up my phone and showed her pics of Mr rapist dick , she smiled and told me it’s good . She then wanted to show my dans dick , she picked up her phone and opened an image , I covered my eyes and told her ” ewww that my brother I don’t wanna see that ” , she laughed and said that she forgot about that . She went to take a piss and my curiosity was through the roof , I looked at the pic , what I saw I couldn’t believe it , it was the biggest dick I’ve ever seen , double the size of Mr rapist and it was so thick that j couldn’t even wrap my fingers around it . I thought that it might not be my brother , I looked through more pics and indeed it was dan and idk why it was an impulsive thought but I sent those pics to my self and delete the chat history from Anna’s phone . Anna came back and started talking again , I couldn’t hear her , I could only imagine Dan’s dick over her face . I told her that I am tired and wanna go home . And Mr rapist and I went home .
At home mr rapist quickly fell asleep, I went to bathroom and locked the door, I sat on the counter and looked at those pics again . I was getting horny , I realised what I was doing , and it was wrong , I went to bed. Next day all I could think about was my brother, our childhood memories was rushing through my brain , I was in my office when a memory came in my mind , I was 22 and he was 17 , I had just started working in a company, I started coming home late and my mom used to sleep early , one day I came home early , and I have a habit of checking on my brother and mom seeing if they’re sleeping well . I checked my mom and she was sleeping like a child . I thought my brother was sleeping too , when I opened the door , I saw him shirtless under the blanket, I saw his short on the floor I knew he was naked , I jokingly asked him ” are you naked underneath that blanket, are you jerking off” , in panic he said ” no , I am not and get out ” , that’s when I saw a red cloth he was trying to hide under blanket but couldn’t properly. I went to my room thinking what could it be , I realised what it was , and to confirm it I went to laundry room and in basket I looked for my red panty I wore day before , and couldn’t find it . I knew what was going on I started crying , knowing my brother is jerking off to my panties . I went to my room and just layed there on my bed for a while , I heard the door open and after fee minutes closed . I went to laundry room and there it was my red panty , I picked it up and saw slimy substance on is , I swiped it with my fingers , and I got horny, I didn’t have boyfriend at that time , no action in my life , the cum I had swiped with my fingers , I licked it . I wanted to pleasure myself, I took that panty as went to my room got naked , and licked that cum from my panty and then I rubbed my panty all over my face which made my face covered in cum . We did this for few months, yeah we both wanted to fucked each other but couldn’t ever. Then I moved into my own apartment and eventually forgot about it .
Now to my husband Mr rapist and why that name , so where I worked my boss had a friend , guy 49 years old , he wanted some help my boss recommended me. I went to his office , and as I mentioned before that I only wear pants and shirt , my ass kinda looks big in it . I caught him checking out my ass , I didn’t mind tbh cos he wasn’t the only one who checks out my ass , few days later he suggested that we work at his home , it was around 8 at night , I went there, we were sitting on a couch and all the documents were on the table , so I had to lean forward to get it . He got great view of my ass and was clearly enjoying it . He gave in to his thoughts and grabbed my ass , I slapped him and got up , he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me down which made me sit on his lap , I was struggling to get up , he ripped my shirt buttons and pulled up my bra , he started squeezing my boobs and pinching my tits . I was crying hard , he got up and threw my on the couch and my back was up , he grabbed my waist and pulled my ass up , he ripped my pants and started fucking him , when he put his dick in my pussy first time I got this weird sensation, and I stopped struggling and let him rapped me ,He came on my back on my shirt . We didn’t say a word after that , he suggested that he drop me off to my house in his car cos my clothes were ripped and I was naked basically. He dropped off to my house and I didn’t report him to authorities or the company, next day I went to work like nothing has happened , and later to his home to get the work done . After an hour I saw that he was getting horny and was about to do what he did the night before, I got up and told him not to rip my clothes, I removed my clothes willingly, got naked and fucked him on the couch , which went on for few months , we shared feelings and got married, hence the name mr rapist, cos he had actually raped me . He still fucks me without my consent, in a fight he fucks me hard ad making me say that it was all my mistake.
Now to main part of the story , as mentioned before , I knew my brothers obsession with my panties and mine with his dick . I wanted to know if he still would use my panties , so one day when I was alone i called him home , I told him we should go outside, I deliberately smeared honey on his face as a joke , I knew he would have to clean it up using water , I told him to use my bathroom , I had put my panty on counter , he was in there for 5 minutes, I went in and saw that panty was moved a bit I picked it up and smelled it and it had pungent smell , and I knew he rubbed his dick on my panty. It was also bit wet , I think it was his precum . That is the moment I gave in to my sexual fantasies about my brother . He was laying in my bedroom , and I was in bathroom, I removed my clothes except panty and bra and came out , I pretended it was normal for me to roam half naked around him . I brought that panty he used and removed my panty in front of him and wore that infront of him , I removed my bra and wore other bra . I saw that he was confused, I jokingly said ,” is this turning you on gross” , he defensively said no . I laughingly said “liar liar “, I flashed him my boobs and said” you want to fuck your sister don’t you ?”.I turned around and pulled down my panty flashing him my ass , while laughing. I went to him ” you’re not that incest loving guy,are you ? And grabbed his crotch and he hard as a wood . He was very defensive and quite uncomfortable he kept denying it . Then I told him “oh come on I know you used to jerk off to my panties and cum on them ” , he was shocked, I added” dw it’s normal” and I lied that all my girlfriend friends brother’s also used to do this to make him feel better , and few of them might even have fucked their brother .
Few days later he called me and told me to come to his house . When I went to his house and opened the door he grabbed my boobs from behind and he stuck his face in my neck , I was struggling at first but when I heard those heavy breathing, I knew it was dan, I whispered “oh dan “. He ripped my shirt button and I wasn’t wearing any bra , he also removed my pants making me bottomless. He bent me over slightly not all the way and started rubbing his hands on my pussy and asshole , it looked like he was washing my ass. But all I could think was that how good it feels that my little brothers huge hands are rubbing my pussy and ass. He turned me around that’s when I saw him for first time since I got in his house. I saw his face and that look resembled the one mr rapist had when he first raped me. I looked at him for few seconds, I wanted to capture that look on his face , that lust on his face for me , made me want this more and more. He placed his hands on my head and pushed me down , he then removed his shorts , and there it was , that huge dick , double the size of Mr rapist . I grabbed it , and I forgot to mention my brother is not circumcised. I pushed his foreskin back revealing his tip . I leaned my face towards it , and just sniffed it slowly. That smell of dick of my brother I wanted more of it , I sniffed entire length of his dick upto his testicles. I grabbed his testicles from bottom and sniffed those too. Then I opened my mouth and put both testicles in it . I kept it in my mouth for atleast 2 minutes and started licking his dick and started sucking it properly. He picked me up and took me to his bedroom , he threw me in his bed and opened my legs so he could eat it and he did . He then turned me around and eat my asshole . And in that same position he put his dick in my pussy and fucked me hard . I kept moaning his name over and over . Then he did something that I don’t like , he covered my mouth with his hand and told me to spit on it , then he applied all that spit on my asshole and just inserted his huge dick in my asshole , I screamed hard . I dont even let me rapist fuck me in the ass cos I think it would hurt. But when dan fucked me in the ass that pain was insufferable tears were coming out but few minutes in anal sex , pain had stopped I could only feel that sensation we feel during sex . I thought he was finished but then he turned me around and got on top of my chest ,I thought he was going to cum on my face , but he face fucked me for few more minutes until eventually he came in my mouth. He got up as layed there perpendicular to me with his head on my stomach, while I caressed his hair . I looked at him and suggested that we should take shower . And that’s what we did , and this routine is going on till now , neither his girlfriend and my husband knows about it .
I fuck my brother and I am not ashamed of it , I feel safe around him and he satisfies me like no one can.